24 years ago my mother passed away. June 9th, 1987 my mother passed from this world to her reward in heaven. This day changed my life forever. Holidays would never be the same, but Mother's Day was the one that I had the most trouble with. Who was I to celebrate and honor on that day. I wasn't able to call her for her advise ever again. She was there for me from the simplest to the most complex of issues in my life. I felt that I lost a part of me that could never have a possibility of restoration. My heart had broken into pieces and there was no glue possible to fix it. There were now pieces that were missing never to be found again. On Mother's Day our church would celebrate mother's by giving carnations. Of course it was wonderful to receive the red carnations from my children but it was so hard to accept a white carnation for my passed mother. Even though I was blessed by God for my three children and I was always guaranteed to get my favorite flower on a day specially created for that one person in your life that would be there for you no matter what you do and how you treated her, your mother. My mother at times showed how nieve she was but she still had a lot of wisdom that as I got older and had my own children I depended on. Although when I was growing up and especially my teenage years I thought that she only wanted to be mean and keep me from fun, I now realize that all she was doing was trying to raise me up to be a mature woman, friend, wife and mother. As time passed I was able to see that my mother didn't just show me how to live but also how to die. She showed her faith in the Lord through her end days. It was so hard to see her in the condition that she was in but she knew that she would have a new body, free from sorrow and pain. Though I was not with her when she passed onto her new life that Salvation gave her I know that the Lord gave her a peace when she crossed over. I know that it has been a lot of years since that day but I miss her. There have been so many times that I wish she was here to give me her wisdom. But, she did teach me to rely on the Lord through tough times even when I created those tough times myself. She showed me a reliance on the Lord more than I could ever imagine.
I love you Mom and miss you.
