What's the use!!

I am lost at the moment. I feel like I am in a very bad movie and there is no hope or chance of happiness. So, what's the use. Why walk this path because I have walked the same path so many times in my life. I keep tripping in the same potholes, fall because I again did not see the same rock that I stubbed my toes on. The same bruises, scratches, and cuts. Each time I start out I hope for something different but unfortunately there are not any changes. No matter how hard I try I cannot get out of this place. I am trapped and condemned to this horrible place. Never changing. I would love to hear the birds sing, watch the flowers bloom, to feel the warmth of the sun, and to gaze at the clouds that take shapes of mysterious far off lands. To smell the crisp and refreshing ocean winds as it plays around you.and teases my hair. My eyes are open but they are blind, I scream for help but there is no sound to be heard. I reach to feel the softness of the green grass but I look and I have no hands. So, what is the use. I then know that I must get on my knees and cry out to my Lord. Seek His joy, ask for wisdom, ask for His strength and most of all ask Him what His Perfect Will is for my life. There may be bumps in the road but I know that I can make it through because the Lord is with me every step of the way. If I look to Him I will hear the birds sing, watch the flowers bloom, feel the warmth of the sun and gaze at the clouds that take shapes of mysterious far off lands. There is so much that He will show me and give me as long as I humble myself. He wants nothing more than to bless me. I just have to quit looking at me and keep my eyes on Him. Thank you Father for helping me grow up. You have shown me so much and that you have taught me that old dogs can learn new tricks. You are amazing.

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When do you stop walking on egg shells

Now as the title asks "When do you stop walking on egg shells" You stop having to bite your tongue when the people that you were around are not on your friends list on any of your blogs. If you read my blog and you don't like what I have to say then stop reading it. Quite frankly, if you get offended by my insight or thoughts then my hat is off to you. Now you may wonder about that last statement...it is because it is like watching Smoking Gun presents....World's Dumbest. I will think of the catagory later. So for those that read my blog and you start to feel that anger fill you up inside, or maybe guilt then you really should ask your self, maybe these emotions are because you have done something that the Lord would not approve of.

I have found that my new doctor thinks that I do have a problem with a nerve impingment. I have been living with pain since May 26, 2009 when I had surgery. I have suffered through DVT and exstremely sensitive pelvic area which makes the skin in that area sensitive to touch. There is also pain in my left leg

I was going through some of my things, making decisions on whether I will keep it or throw it away.

Listening to God

Today I read a blog that really caught my attention. Reflecting on the Grace of God. It was very interesting that when you throw away a marriage, kidnap the child that your spouse helped create when something goes wrong. I would not have anyone think that it was alright for the parent that did something wrong. But when that person does everything to get cleaned up they are still being faulted for the issue. Now remember that God had forgiven the person with the issue. That is why this person was able to move forward. With that in mind you would come to a natural conclusion that the other person in this marriage would be there to encourage and build up. Work to get trust back and remember that when the vows were spoke it is a convenient t with God. The real truth is that the person that ran away has decided that it is OK to spit in God's face. I am sure someone might think that my last comment is outrageous but it is fitting when seeing the actions of that person that chose to walk away. The bad thing is that person is using the couples child as a weapon. Liken to a sword, sharp and lethal. As time has passed I have witnessed how that person uses the weapon, slashing and piercing the flesh of the soul and spirit. As this person speaks you can smell the stench of the enemy. In the background you can hear the laughter of the evil one. Observing the actions of this person you see how the evil one has appeared as an angel of light. He has been working overtime to make sure that this family is fractured and broken beyond recognition. He is a liar and has found the weakness to make his move. To speak as if he is God.

One thing that I have been doing is to watch how I speak. To call on the Lord to help me recognize when the evil one is trying to slip into my thoughts. To really listen to the Father is the most important thing to do when those that you love and care for are going astray. Asking for the wisdom to know when you lend an ear but let your mouth be still.

Lucas, you are in the hands of the Lord.

Lucas is my sweet little man, my grandson. Unfortunately I am currently not able to watch him grow up to a handsome young man. I remember being able to hold him when he was born. It was only for a little time because he was born just a little early so he had to stay at the hospital. It was wonderful to see him come home for the first time in his life. He was small but you could tell that he was going to be the cutest little man born and he would steal your heart. Of all my grandchildren, Lucas was the only one that I was able to be there when he was born. What a wonderful gift. He was born 12/23/2008 just a couple days from Christmas. He was one of my best gifts that year. I became a Nana for the second time on 11/14/2008 with a granddaughter then I was blessed with Lucas. There is no way anyone could look at this picture of Lucas and just melt. He has the sweetest smile.