Interesting translation

I am in a place in my life that I listen to others and find that there are a lot of interesting translations to the way of the Lord. I have recently been in contact with a long lost friend by her choice. We are sisters in Christ but at the time of the separation of my friend connection she told me that she could not remain friends due to my views on God. The statement was made that I thought God was always looking for a way to punish me. Now I don't recall thinking that and if I did, well I have grown since that time. She recently apologized to me and ask me for forgiveness for her immature way of looking at things and judging others. I told her of course I would forgive her. She admitted to me that what she said about me was false and that I did not relate that in any way to her that I thought God was just waiting for the opportunity to punish me. We chatted on the subject and found that neither one of us believed that, but we both agreed that according to God's Word, His Holy Word that there are commandments that we are to follow. When we make promises to God, Covenets to Him that we need to follow His commandments. Now, we talked about how God knows that we are in a sinful world and that we will fail but that doesn't give us the right to do it anyway because we are forgiven. Just as Paul said "Heaven Forbide" We don't welcome and boldly walk into disobedience just because we know that the Lord has forgiven us. My friend said that if we willfully do this then maybe our committment to God was not true. That we should really examine ourselves and ask the Lord for guidence in the

Now What?

It has been since May 22 that I have been out of work. I had my surgery May 26 and was having pain in my abdomen for the longest time. I had a CT scan to see what the problem was but on the day I was to find out the results I was taken by ambulance that day. I had all sorts of test because they thought that I had a mini stroke. Come to find out that I developed DVT....Deep Vein Thrombosis. That is a clinical way of saying blood clot. I was not too worried about it until I found out how fatal it could be if the blood clot broke loose. It could go to my lungs, heart, or brain. Each one would take me to my reward in heaven. I was diagnosised on August 13th, 2009. I have pain in my leg most of the day. It will be more intense if I walk too much during the day. I do try to push my limit but I do pay for it later. As it stands now I have an appointment with a Vascular Surgeon to find out where I stand.
I am on Long Term Disability now and I can only stay on it for 1 year so that means by December I will be cut off from all monies unless the clot has dissolved before then. We shall see what the out come is. Well, as it is now I just have to wait for the results of the tests that I will go through. I will have to remain on Coumiden which is a blood thinner. I need to get a medical alert bracelet so that if anything ever happens that causes me to have to go to the hospital and I am not able to speak for myself that they will know that I am on that medication. Great huh?
I may have to remain on this for 6 months to 1 year after it dissolves. I will have to have follow up scans to make sure I have not developed another.
So, that is all for this moment.

Well, Christmas has come and gone and on to the New Year. I have to say that my Christmas was great. It would have been even better if my little Lucas was here too but that wasn't in the cards this year. I would have loved to had the snow that Adrienne and Lucas had for Christmas, but you don't get that in AZ so it is really hard to get into the season when all you see is brown and cacti. Ugh.
Even though I didn't get the weather that would lend to the season I did get to have my daughter, son in law, Veronica, and Cadence here. It was really funny that my oldest granddaughter. Veronica, thought that the rental vacation home was my house. She announced that it was beautiful. We didn't try to explain to her that it wasn't my home. I don't think that she would have understood it even if we tried.
She is so full of energy that I sleep almost a whole day after they went back home. I know that this is the reason that it is best that young people have children and not my age. Such imaginations they have. My Cadence was a busy little girl and quiet until something really upset her.
It was so nice to have everyone together. We had a really relaxed dining. Nothing elaborate. It was much better not having to spend so much time in the kitchen and spend more time with the family.
Now that Christmas is over I am trying to get a package sent to Lucas and Adrienne for Christmas and for Lucas' 1st birthday. I hope that he will enjoy what he will be getting. I am looking for something really special so I can get this to them.

Closure

Since I moved to AZ I have been in contact with my 2nd ex. I tried to be a friend and be understanding but he is so unhealthy emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. He loves remaining in his life with alcohol as his god. After some real in depth soul searching I found that I needed so desperately to clean up all the things that kept me bound in my unhealthy boundaries. So, I made a phone call leaving a voice mail that he stop calling and that even if he does change his ways that I cannot have him in my life. I cannot even be a friend. He seems to suck the life right out of people like me. Someone that wants to help and fix things. To secure that he will not contact me ever again I sent an email to his mother so that she will understand my position and that he will have no room in my heart or life. I have felt such a burden lifted off of me and I am really happy with my decision. So far I have not heard from him especially the drunk calls that he would do. I am so glad that the Lord has led me to this. I cannot wait to see all the other changes that will take place in my life. I pray that the Lord will give me the strength to continue on in this cleansing.

My three beautiful grandchildren. Veronica Storey Scellick, Cadence Evangelina Scellick, Lucas Arthur Sotomayor. Cadence and Lucas really hit it off.

I just don't understand but I can only depend on my faith

As of now I have been off work since May 26th, 2009. That is when I had my surgery and then come to find out I was having complications recovering to the point that I found out that I have a blood clot in my left leg in my knee. The clinical term for this is DVT...Deep Vein Thrombosis. Well, that means that I have a clot in one of the main veins that go to the heart. They are very dangerous and can break off and go to other organs in your body. Worst case is death if it goes to the heart or lungs. So, I am still home taking blood thinners to help dissolve this clot so that there is no room for danger. Until then I do very little and lay around with my leg up most of the time, talk about boring. I am tired of this. I keep praying that nothing bad will happen but I have been going over things with my oldest son in case. Pray that he doesn't have to worry about this at all.

Strange how things happen

I have been reflecting on how my life has taken it course over the past year. As of July 31st I have been in AZ for a full year now. As of August 18th I will be at my job for a year. Since the time that I arrived in this land of sunlight, I have welcomed a grandson into this world. I also had the privilage to see my newest granddaughter over the beginning of the New Year. I do not get to be around my granddaughters because they live in WA which is a distance from me. Not that I am saying that I cannot go up and visit but during this first year I have had to some major recovery from my departure from OR.
In this past year I have said hellos to new friends, miss yous to old friends, hangin with both my boys, really getting to know and love with all my heart my daughter in law, playin with my precious grandson, having closure on a relationship from the past, and best of all a major surgery that corrected an issue that most women don't want in the first place....LOL!
I have been wanting so bad to move back to OR. I have been so homesick over this. I had outlined a plan for this. I have been wanting to get an ASL certification so that I could get a job with the state of Oregon and an intrepreter. Well, as I have been home recovering from the surgery I realized something and came to a conclusion. No matter that I would love to move back to OR, I have decided that my home is here in AZ because I cannot leave my little grandson. He would not have any grandma's living anywhere near him and most of all I would have such a void in my heart and life if I were to go. Now, my goal for the ASL is still on the table but I will seek a job here in AZ. The only way I would move is if I won the Powerball and I could move my family up to WA so that we could all be near each other. So, until that happens I will stay here and enjoy my time with my family that is here and just kiss and hug my little man as much as I can. I do plan on saving to make a couple trips up to WA to visit my daughter and her fam. I want my granddaughters to know who I am too.!