Disorder of neuronal circuits in autism is reversible, new study suggests

Disorder of neuronal circuits in autism is reversible, new study suggests

Things are changing

Certainly things are changing right before my very eyes. My life is just a cluster and I just cannot seem to get out of the rut I have put myself in. I thought that I would be a welcome part of my family but I have found that I am, as my daughter has referred to me as, a burden that they do not want to have to take care of. I was unaware that I left that impression but apparently I have. I don't want to be a burden to anyone and I just don't know how to get out of all this mess. I think that there are jobs out there to be had with my experience but with all the rejections I am getting a little depressed. It is bringing me to a place that isn't good. I know that things are changing but I didn't think that it would be so bad as to keep me from moving forward...Maybe I am the problem. I will look at myself and find an answer to this situation.

Now in regards to the topic my daughter spoke about. I have noticed for a long time now that I have not been someone that she welcomes into her family. Her in-laws are closer to her than myself.  I don't want to bring all my chaos into their family.

I hope that I can turn things around so that I will be in a better place. I need to do this for myself.

Thanksgiving

Well, it is officially Thanksgiving. My younger brother and his family will be celebrating this holiday with my older brother and I. I have a turkey that we will be deep frying. Will will also have smoked turkey breast, yams, potatoes, gravy, green beans, olives, rolls, pies, and red velvet cake for my nephew's, sister in law, and my birthday.

I wish that I could have all my children and grandchildren with me. I pray that some day I will have that as a blessing for me. It would mean so much to me, but at this time I am thankful for my family that I will have celebrating with me later today. I may not have a lot but I do have to thank the Lord for what I do have. I am thankful that my older brother has taken me in and allowed me to live in his house so I wouldn't be homeless. I am thankful that I have found out what my physical issue is and that there is a short term solution until I am able to finally fix it. I am thankful that I have a little money to help out. I am thankful for my friends that have shown me so much kindness. I am thankful for my oldest son that he is back with Teen Challenge and depending on the Lord to help him with his addiction, I am thankful for my daughter and her family that they welcome me and want me to visit with them. I am thankful that my granddaughters love to have me visit with them and that they miss me when I leave to go home, I am thankful for my youngest son and that he has been blessed with a job in a position that he has wanted for a long time. I am thankful that the Lord will someday bless me with being with my grandson Lucas. I am thankful most of all that my Father in Heaven loved me so much that He sent His Son to give me the gift of salvation.

That is what Thanksgiving is all about. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone.

Homeward Bound to recover

The first night I was up visiting my daughter and family, I was having a great time playing with my oldest granddaughter. First time I was able to get down on the ground and play. Then I had a little acid reflux so I thought that I would quickly get something for my stomach to stop it. I explained it to my 4 1/2 year old granddaughter. She understood and was going to go with me downstairs. Out of no where I tripped and fell. I twisted my left ankle and heard a crack sound. I was so afraid that I would fall on top of my granddaughter that I grabbed at anything to keep me from falling on her and possibly hurting her more than what I now was experiencing. I couldn't even walk that first night. It swelled up so much that I couldn't put on a shoe. It really caused a problem with playing with my granddaughters. Can you believe that something this weird would happen?

Happy Birthday

This past weekend was a celebration of my youngest granddaughter's 3rd birthday. She was so excited to have all the attention. On Saturday, her G&G Scellick came over to help her celebrate this milestone in her life. She loves to blow out the candles and to have the song "Happy Birthday" sung in honor of her. She is the Queen of the Fairies and loves the colors, pink and purple. She was very happy with all her presents that she got. Then on her actual birthday which was the 14th she got another special gift. It was a beanie baby. A little dog called Bones. It is too bad that I had gotten rid of all the ones I had because I could have given her Bones. Oh well, that is the way it works.

She is a sweet little girl and loves to play with her princesses. She acts shy but she is far from that. I am glad that I was able to celebrate her birthday with her. I have not been able to be at any of hers or her sisters birthday. I had a good time and now I am on my way home.

Going to Bellingham

I am getting my things together for my trip to Bellingham. I am going to be able to spend my first time with my granddaughters birthday. I am excited to be able celebrate her purple birthday. I still have to get a couple things for her. My daughter, Kamille said that what I have gotten her was enough. On Saturday,G&G Scellick with be there at the birthday party too. It will be fun.

Tays turning 3.

November 14th, 2011 will be my sweet Tays 3rd birthday. This will be my first year celebrating her birthday with the family. She is extremely excited and if she had her way everyone in the world would be there to help in her celebration. I am not sure how long the list is according to her mama. Advantage goes to parents on this one because a 3 year old cannot debate the issue in her favor.

I will be taking the train up there, which reminds me that I better get my tickets secured. It is a long trip but it is restful and at my age I will need to rest up for all the action and excitement. I am pretty sure that Veronica, my oldest granddaughter will want to fill the role of waking Nana up each morning. Tay may want to do it too so hopefully it won't cause any tears. They both can do it. Now back to the train ride. The rest is because the girls get up much earlier than I usually do, by at least 2 to 3 hours. I am not an morning person and I am proud to annouce that. There is no shame in my game, besides, I am closing on my senior years so it is better to need more rest than to have to wear depends and I will take the sleep over peeing my pants any day.

I have a couple things for Tays that I am sure that she will love but I have one more thing to get. I want to find a pretty dress for her or more leggings. We shall see.