What's the use!!

I am lost at the moment. I feel like I am in a very bad movie and there is no hope or chance of happiness. So, what's the use. Why walk this path because I have walked the same path so many times in my life. I keep tripping in the same potholes, fall because I again did not see the same rock that I stubbed my toes on. The same bruises, scratches, and cuts. Each time I start out I hope for something different but unfortunately there are not any changes. No matter how hard I try I cannot get out of this place. I am trapped and condemned to this horrible place. Never changing. I would love to hear the birds sing, watch the flowers bloom, to feel the warmth of the sun, and to gaze at the clouds that take shapes of mysterious far off lands. To smell the crisp and refreshing ocean winds as it plays around you.and teases my hair. My eyes are open but they are blind, I scream for help but there is no sound to be heard. I reach to feel the softness of the green grass but I look and I have no hands. So, what is the use. I then know that I must get on my knees and cry out to my Lord. Seek His joy, ask for wisdom, ask for His strength and most of all ask Him what His Perfect Will is for my life. There may be bumps in the road but I know that I can make it through because the Lord is with me every step of the way. If I look to Him I will hear the birds sing, watch the flowers bloom, feel the warmth of the sun and gaze at the clouds that take shapes of mysterious far off lands. There is so much that He will show me and give me as long as I humble myself. He wants nothing more than to bless me. I just have to quit looking at me and keep my eyes on Him. Thank you Father for helping me grow up. You have shown me so much and that you have taught me that old dogs can learn new tricks. You are amazing.